Thursday Confessions: What it feels like to have a Surreal Achievement

Imagine yourself at your high school graduation. Are you the valedictorian or the salutatorian, making the big speech in front? Or are you the student council president, standing beside the president of your school, giving out the diplomas? Because I wasn’t anyone of them. All I did was sit there, listen to the speakers and pace a 3 minute walk on stage to receive my diploma. Listening to all these achievers, I thought to myself, “Why am I not one of them?” Why didn’t I do as well as them? And then the crashing re-evaluation of my life started. What had I ever achieved? What had I ever learned? Nothing. Nothing to be proud of. I was just one of the many average, good for “something” (I don’t know what) girl. While about a quarter of my graduating batch-mates are having medal upon medal placed on the neck, the only thing I got was a loyalty award. Meaning, “Hey, I started and finished high school here. Woohoo.”

From that moment on, I vowed to myself the next time I stand on a commencement stage and receive a diploma, I will have a medal I could be proud of. College would lead me to that point. Unfortunately, life doesn’t work that way. Habits die hard and I started college with nothing like a bang. I just went with it. Did what I’m told. Kept a low profile. I tried to get myself out of the ditch once and work hard, but I just can’t muster up an achievement that I can really say I’m proud of. I’m in the field of psychology, and I love psychology. It should be just a matter of hard work, time and most especially, luck. Boy, do I need lady luck on my side.

In one of my new classes today, we introduced ourselves and stated a key achievement received since starting college. Guess what, I couldn’t think of any! What kind of pathetic loser am I? I asked myself. 4th year in college and still no key achievements? I didn’t want to say something like, “passing my subjects, or getting into a university.” It’s not the prestigious achievement I vowed to myself all those years ago. I want something I worked hard for, really gave my all with no questions asked.

Then I remembered the email I received last week. Does that count as an achievement? I don’t feel like it does. Does it?  Even after all my stance on achieving something significant, I didn’t realize that this was definitely one of it. 

PAP!!!

Flying to CDO in August to present our paper to the convention 🙂

It had felt surreal. My mind still won’t accept it. I still feel like I’m dreaming it. One moment, my thesis mates and I were arduously writing our thesis day in and day out. Then the next, we were hand chosen by the chairperson of the Department of Psychology. We were to submit our paper to the Psychological Association of the Philippines (PAP) for a review. 2 months later, I received this email.

For the first time in my life, a true achievement. For something heavily invested with late nights, sweat, and tears. Finally, things turned out for the better. I have achieved one for the books. 🙂

I know this wasn’t what I promised to myself. This paper was a collaborative work. But each and every one of us gave it our all. That’s why I’m so proud of this. We put our minds and hearts into this and our work was recognized.

I just want to let myself recognize this too. I want to believe in myself that I am capable. If there is hard work and luck involved, then endless possibilities can be achieved.

Thanks for reading!

Patricia xo

P.S. Changed “Thursday Secrets to Thursday Confessions.” It just felt more right 🙂

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Sunday Summary of Food Reviews and Spring Cleaning Blogs.

I’ve hope to make a mark on a good comeback. This week, I have unlocked a new achievement as I have posted 5 times, more than I have ever did (in a week) since I started this blog. And for me, that’s a BIG step towards my goal of “writing myself out there.”

Last Monday, I began my comeback with a review of the pizza chain, Project Pie, and its innovative way of serving customers something new and different with every order. Check it out to find out how!

Mine <3. I came prepared and had all the toppings I wanted. But I was kind of shy to ask for more because the long line is a pressure to bear with. You have to say everything fast and concise when you have about 20 more people behind you, waiting in line.

Mine <3. I came prepared and had all the toppings I wanted. But I was kind of shy to ask for more because the long line is a pressure to bear with. You have to say everything fast and concise when you have about 20 more people behind you, waiting in line.

2 days later, I reviewed Ajisen Ramen, my first take into the domain of the ramen-addicts, and it turned out really gooood. I wonder if this sudden urge of mine to try as many ramen houses is good for my health?

Chashu ramen P305. Basically the same thing with the Ajisen Ramen.

Chashu ramen P305. Basically the same thing with the Ajisen Ramen.

Next was FINALLY getting rid of my old theme and theme headers. Not only that, I also edited my About Me page, my side bars, my footers, and my customized menu! I must say, a heavy burden was lifted off my shoulders when I did the “spring cleaning” of my blog. “Write Yourself Out There” was born properly, this time. To those who are bewildered by my title, this post will explain why I’ve chosen this particular set of words.

Can you believe this was an accidental shot?!

Can you believe this was an accidental shot?!

My display image...after like a billion shots ;)

My display image…after like a billion shots 😉

Then my hankering for steaks wormed it’s way into my blog. I just had to make another review of yet another good restaurant. Everything at Steak was a favorite to-go place for…everyone I know actually. So I don’t regret writing many good words about this one 🙂

Medium rare. Brown on the outside, red on the center.

Medium rare. Brown on the outside, red on the center.

Not even 24 hours later, I’ve created another post (yes, my hands are really itching to keep typing) to introduce the weekly and monthly features I’ve set up for this blog! I am really excited about this, and so I hope good things would come through this features 🙂

Credited to plotwhisperer.com

Credited to plotwhisperer.com

 

Thanks for reading!

Patricia xo

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Creating New Features Weekly and Monthly

 

Credited to plotwhisperer.com

Credited to plotwhisperer.com

 

After staying up all night and finally getting some sleep this morning, I decided to create weekly and monthly features! I figured I needed a hook to commit myself to continuously produce content – even good content. So after listing down all my possible future blog posts ideas (that was a mouthful), I sorted them out to categories. Turns out, I have more possible content on food and personal posts!

So from now on, weekly features will have:

  • Thursday Secret – this will be about confessions, views on life and you know, the usual “secrets” one always have. 😉
  • Food Fridays – will look exactly like the reviews on the restaurants I have posted before. I’ve been trying out a lot of good places lately and I can’t wait to share it with you weekly!
  • Sunday Summary – will be about my weekly summaries. So to give my posts a longer shelf-life, I’ll blog about my after thoughts on my past entries and give short descriptions about them.
Credited to: sciccarelli.yolasite.com

Credited to: sciccarelli.yolasite.com

On the monthly features section, I wanted to tie myself to a huge responsibility I have been dodging around for years. Truth is, I have a long-term unfinished fiction novel. I’ve been meaning to work on it again, but never had the full commitment of even writing one chapter. So to do myself a favor, I’ll post a chapter here every month. And to further help me, I’m also going to read and review one book each month.

Monthly features will be:

  • Third Tuesday Tales –  The story is about a girl who couldn’t choose between twins that were separated at birth. (cliché, I know. But give it a chance!)
  • Second Saturday Book Reviews – I used to read about 3 books a week, it has now dwindled to one book a month, and even that’s a challenge. But I promise to keep this promise!

I’m also thinking about having a monthly Q&A with my readers and the community I’m hoping to be a part of. But do you think that’s already taking on too much? Or is it too early in the game to have a Q&A?

What are your weekly, bi-weekly, monthly, annual features? 🙂

 

Thanks for reading,

Patricia xo

P.S. Got the idea from The Daily Post 🙂 Love their  Blogging 101: Zero to Hero, will try to make posts based on them soon!